Decided to stop TTC...

My boyfriend and I were TTC for the past 4 months and it didn't happen. After a lot of thinking I have made the personal choice to stop TTC. I decided I just am not ready for the commitment of a baby quite yet. My boyfriend is very supportive of me and my decisions so he is fine with it. Although I know my life is just too busy for a baby and Waiting is my best option, I still feel so sad about my decision and I don't know why. Has anyone else ever been through this? How did you deal with it? Just looking for some advice and maybe support... 😔