F T M 😭😭

I don’t know if I’m just being emotional for no reason but I’m SSOOO upset my doctor not letting me go into labor on my own I’m currently 40+4 and 1cm dilated got my sweep today BUT I’m also scheduled to be induced Friday morning I asked for it to be pushed to Monday so my body can go into labor on its own but I got denied. Do I have a reason or am I just acting out.

ALSO how do I remain calm because as soon as I found out I started crying I’m not really ready but who ever is ready to be a mom I have so much anxiety it’s hard to remain calm ...