I want my rainbow baby so badly, but ttc puts a damper on my social life. I don’t enjoy things like partying adventures coffee wine or cognac as I’d love to because I want to keep my body healthy “just in case I conceived”. Then the cycle ends with my period and I’m so disappointed I didn’t do all I had in mind for that month. I feel like a Prisoner to my body.

I had decided to give up on ttc but still I keep praying af doesn’t show each month since.

I’m on vacation now and I realized I’m on my ovulation weeek having lots of sex. 😁😁 however on the list is a day at Universal Studios Orlando. I want to forfeit going in case I’ve conceived but what if nth happened and AF shows later . I’d be so 😡😡😡. So I’ve decided to have fun. What is to be will be by gods doing.