I feel like there aren't many things I am sure of anymore. One thing I am sure of is that I am head over heels in love with you and always have been. Recently you have been very abrasive, caustic, and just plain mean. Being short tempered and negative about everything.. You quickly apologize to me and tell me it hurts you physically and emotionally to upset me even when it's unintended. You are a very kind and good man, but you stress me out everyday when you come home from work in a shitty mood. I feel as though I am in a bad mood afterwards because I can feel the energy suffocating me. When you touch me I feel as we did when we were young. I know the warmth of your touch eases my troubled mind. Sex with you is ecstacy and we can't get enough of each other. You put my pleasure ahead of yours and make sure I am comfortable before, during, and after. You've taught me honesty and to be realistic. I am truly afraid of what is going to come next. Are we really ready.. am I just trying to sabotage something good because of a little stress? Being with you has shown me that there is true love out there. I crave so much more out of life and I hate this sedentary lifestyle. You come home, we sleep. Weekends.. We sleep. We barely leave the bedroom. You're always tired. The times you're awake you show me affection beyond imagination. I know we've talked about children and although we aren't actively trying, we aren't actively preventing either. We've both equally made sacrifices that were for the better or to compound not adding to issues we have been through, dealt with, and healed. We don't hold grudges or dredge up past wrongs.. Our finances are better than ever and we have little to want. I see more good than negative about our relationship. Tonight was difficult for me. I became emotional over some self conscious stressor I've had since I was a child. You already knew what it was without us even addressing or acknowledging it out loud. You always know what I am feeling or saying without me having to tell you. You of course knew what to do. You rubbed my back, kissed my shoulder, and told me how much you missed me all week. You sense something still isn't right so what do you do? You bring me flowers and my favorite chocolate from the shoppes. When you walk in the house you tell me you love me and I believe you. I fell asleep in your arms and you held me close the whole night through. Woke me up early to make love to me and took your time. You made sure my body trembled. You held me so close and ensured that I knew how loved I am. I have a terrible habit of self sabotaging things that are good for me. I just know I love you and I always have.