Probably the worst person ever...

So I wrote a post earlier about an older guy telling me things that made me smile..my husband does the exact same thing..but coming from an older experienced man it just made me feel more special. Well I am guilty of kissing this man. I keep thinking of everything and I'm going to get sick. I don't want to tell my husband because I don't want our marriage to break up..I know I'm suppose to end the other thing before it goes further but I kinda dont want to. This is a place for me to let it out. I know I'm not a good person right now feeling guilty and I ask myself..what if my husband did this to me? I know I would be hurt and devastated. You can judge me and I don't mind. I just need to slap my own self back into reality. Thanks Glow for letting me put it here because right now I feel like the loneliest person ever in this world.