I came for first time with partner

Out of all the years of having sex, I have never been able to orgasm with a partner ever! Until about a week ago when I was having sex with my boyfriend of 5 years it happened and I was soo happy and it was amazing! The only problem is that I have been faking my orgasms with him for quite a while :( and I wish I could share this milestone with him because I love him but I feel that if I told him I’ve been lying he would be upset. Also I want to mention that I have told him that I have a difficult time orgasming sometimes when he doesn’t play with my vagina somehow. So he knows I don’t cum sometime I tell him that but all the times I “came” have been lies. Help sisters I’m sad about this. I tried to tell him more than once.