Why do I do this?

Jordan • 💕 momma to baby AJ 2-18-19

I am 2 weeks late. About 4 weeks ago I had brown spotting that lasted until last Monday. I’ve been nauseous and dizzy typically in the morning but randomly through the day. All my at home tests have been negative so last week I got a blood test done and today I got the results back as negative but I STILL torture myself by taking tests just hoping to see a second line :/