Need Some Friendly Words

This goes in several different groups but I felt that this was the best group for the post.

A little backstory:

Me and my boyfriend are in a bit of a tough spot right now. We are trying to get our first house but he wants it to be his first house and me live with him. I previously wanted to get the house with him because I love him, but now I don’t because what is the point of me putting my money into a house in which my name will not be on the title of? If me and him were to break up, I would have lost that money I put in on top of losing him. He is excited to have me live with him but I don’t want to get the house WITH him anymore because it makes me feel like he isn’t committed by having us get the house TOGETHER. On top of that, I’m stressed about a college math test, so I haven’t been studying for it because I want to avoid it which is only making things worse. On top of THAT, I have strict parents and they stress me out. On top of THAT, I have a minimal job and I can’t afford all the things I am paying for.

Anyways, I’m feeling a bit suicidal and very much sick to my stomach (I have GAD, an anxiety disorder, as well as clinical depression; I’m also very emotional and sensitive) and I am losing my confidence because of everything going on.

So here’s a picture of me trying to be happy. If anyone can relate, let me know in the comments how you have/are/will manage/[d] it.