To be or not to be...

I've been on the pill since I was 16. It just became part of my every day routine. A month ago the gyno told me after 12 years that she wanted to take me off the pill, for a month to see how I do. I was having high blood pressure and she was worried that I was going to have a stroke. I freaked out. It was like middle school and high school all over again thinking what if this, what if that? How do I track this dumb cycle, how will I be again without it? Thank God for this app. The high blood pressure I have learned comes from stress and anxiety. I need to learn to control it better. Having been off the pill, I do feel better emotionally, physically and mentally. The cramps still suck and seem worse than ever. I learn later this week what my other alternatives are that I can go on with stress induced High Blood Pressure. I would prefer a pill, however I'm curious, do they all make you gain weight? I am also wondering if now is just the right time for me to stop being on it. Im a grown adult, I'm just scared. I don't want kids at all. I never had. I just, hate condoms. They are gross. They are weird. They make noise and they don't feel good. I don't know what to do. It's not like I'm sleeping around, I've been with someone for a few years now. I'm just nervous to say, I may or not want to take anything anymore. Or are there better alternative pill options now? I need advice ladies.