So I’ve liked a guy a go to high school with since September. I’ve known him for 3 years but this years I’ve had some classes with him and some extra-curriculars so I’ve got to know more about him.

We had an advanced art class together for a semester and once or twice times a week he’d sneak up behind me and say something like “holy crap, that’s awesome” or he’d tease me about taking so long with my work or he’d just comment whatever.

I always sat in the same spot in that class with my back turned to where he sat, but I noticed in the window’s reflection a lot that he’d look like he was going to approach me and then would chicken out and walk away. So I figured he was a little shy.

There was one occasion where I went to Hobby Lobby with my mom and I saw him on my way out. As I walked out he kept eye contact with me the whole time and smiled at me. The next day, at the end of class he knelt by my desk and waited for me to finished talking to a friend before I noticed him there. He said “I wanted to wait for you to finished” and smiled. I said “Oh, holy cow I didn’t see you there, but um, I’m finished” he asked, “how was your Hobbly Lobby experience?”. . . And we chatted a bit.

I used to see him at show choir practice all the time too, at least before the season ended. He was the lead trumpet player and I was a performer. So at one of the practices I asked him out! We went and saw the Greatest Showman together. He was the perfect gentleman. He picked me up from my house and rang the doorbell, shook my parent’s hands, opened every door for me and payed for my ticket, and at the end of the night he walked me to the door and waited for me to unlock it before wishing me a goodnight.

I thought the night went great! I had a great time and we chatted quite a bit. So, the next day I texted him to thank him. He said “your absolutely welcome!”. I texted him the next day about the movie and he never responded.

So around a week later I asked him out again. He wouldn’t really look me in the eye and when I asked him if he were free he said “definitely not this week” which I knew was true. When I followed up by asking if he would be free eventually he said, “Yeah, maybe” and walked away.

I had wondered what I did wrong, but I soon after learned from my aunt who is his boss, that his dad doesn’t want him having a girlfriend.

So to get his attention, everyday for a week or so I went up to him during passing and gave him a little piece of origami. I did this at a show choir competition one day and he said, “Hey, um I need to talk to you later”. So I said, “oh, okay”.

Later when I asked what was up he asked to go in the hall. He told me: “So, I’m going to college soon. That means that I’d leave you behind and I wouldn’t want you to have to wait around. I know you really like me, and I’m sorry I have to be the bad guy, that’s why this took so long, because I really didn’t want to hurt you. I’m sorry” Then he gave me a really tight hug. I asked him if we could be friends and he said sure, but after that he hasn’t really talked to me.

I told one of his friends about the situation and she said: “Oh! It all makes sense now. In one of our classes he said to me, ‘it really sucks being a Senior because that means I can’t be in a relationship’”. His friend also told me that we are going to attend the same college.

Some of my friends have been reporting to me that he stares at me quite a bit too in the halls and whenever we do a auditorium prep.

So around two weeks ago at our last performance I asked him if I could talk to him later. When I did I told him: “So, I found out from your friend that your going to the same college that I plan on attending, so I wanted to know if that changes your mind about anything. I mean, if you’re worried about me being a distraction from your studying, I won’t be. I mean I know what it’s like to study, I really do because I’m working on a duel-degree currently, and I’ve already planned on graduating early next year. So, I just thought I’d let you know that in case that changes your mind. You don’t have to tell me right now. Think about it, and text me or find me around.” He said okay and then wished me a goodnight.

Since that week I’ve heard nothing and over spring break I heard nothing. So. . . What’s your opinion? Please comment!

(Sorry for the suuuuuper long post)

(Also a little info: I’m a Junior and I’ll be 17 in 2 months, he’s a Senior and he just turned 18 a 2.5 weeks ago)