Emotional wreck....

I feel like I've failed I'm a disappointment just feeling shitty I have been crying.... I tell my husband Feels like Everytime I try I get knocked back down. I have been applying everywhere and no call backs nothing it's discouraging. ... He (B's sweet soul) I know babe but it will be ok i promise * I instantly start crying* so through the tears I tell him I know it's just hard when everyone doubts me and or thinks I'm a bum because I dropped out of college last year ( I couldn't handle it so I'm trying to find a job) he's snuggling me if I did anything right it was letting this gentle soul of amazing person walk into my life ❤😢 it also doesn't help when my parents aren't around much and they continuously ask if I'm ever going to get on my "feet" makes me feel like shit please leave some happy thoughts that i can read thanks