So this month marks 5 months since we lost our little Sprout.

That’s 5 months of trying for our rainbow baby with no luck.

It took us 3 months of trying to fall pregnant with Sprout.

Each month since Sprout I have been a nervey, anxious, complete worry wart. Then I have been absolutely devastated when my period has finally shown. Not to mention that my cycles have been all over the place.

This month however I am feeling oddly calm... I am feeling weirdly optimistic too. This month is the first month where I really feel like my body has done what it is supposed to ovulation wise - as well as my partner and I just having sex for the fun of it.

I wonder if maybe it’s because we’re not putting so much pressure on the “let’s make a baby” front, and just enjoying it.

Who knows?

All I know is that I am in love and I feel like this month might be different.

I am hoping for my beautiful rainbow baby, and I know they’ll come when it’s time.

For now though I’m going to curl up next to my handsome man and dream about what my future is going to bring. 😍