So embarrassed

I am to scared to go deliver my baby I’m 38 weeks and my ob is extremely concerned about that baby due to my pre existing conditions and she’s been calling me after hours asking me to come in to the hospital to deliver she said I was going to be induced last week but it slipped her mind but I have been avoiding it I don’t want anything to happen to my baby but all I can think about is pain or if I have to get a c section and on top of that I’m still scared to be a mom i think I’m having a form of anxiety attack I can’t sleep it’s just a mess I’m a mess ughh I need help I just been counting his kicks until I can get the courage to go I’m going to attempt to go to the hospital tomorrow I’m just so scared