I just want to cry 😭
So after trying for two years and two miscarriages and one chemical pregnancy I got this...
I know it’s very faint but I was the happiest as I thought it wasn’t going to happen, I tested two days later to make sure I wasn’t going mad and this was the result.
Still Very faint and it was at this point I began to get concerned as it should have been darker by now, I went to the doctors and they got the same result in there urine test and told me it was an inconclusive result. He told me to wait until I was 2 weeks after the date of my period and test again if I still hadn’t started bleeding I did and got this...
He said I needed a blood test so I went and got a blood test from someone who doesn’t know how to find a vein 🤦♀️ here is the bruise
I got the results today they showed I had 4mlU/ml of HCG (which is negative) then before I had to leave for work I went to the toilet and hello red stuff 🤦♀️
I feel like such an idiot for getting my hopes up, i really thought it was gonna happen this month, almost every night I had a dream about being a mum from finding out I was pregnant through to giving birth and my last one was a toddler with strawberry blonde hair. This dream used to make me so happy but now I feel like it’s never gonna happen.
I just want to cry but can’t and I don’t know why. It’s been two years my partner and I are 21, we are healthy! Why isn’t it happening?! 😭