My heart hurts so much 😢

I work in childcare...children are my life and it’s something I’ve ALWAYS wanted!!!! I have lived a full life but a single life.

I met my husband when I was 34 ...he is amazing and the love of my life! We got married when I was 36 and I’m now 38.

When we first met he told me he wanted children and I believe him that he does...it’s just he has a very low Sex drive!!! Very low!!!! I am constantly begging him for sex, just for the closeness but all I get is rejection! We haven’t bd during my ovulation for the last three months. The more I ask/fight with him about it the more he rejects me. Now after so much rejection I now can’t cum even if we do have sex I only do it for his sperm injection 😢

He refuses to go to a doctor, refuses to talk to me about it.

I’m so scared it’s going to ruin us but I can’t stop it!

He told me just than that it’s all I can think about..sex and babies but I don’t know how to stop it!!!

I now cry when I’m told people are pregnant....my third niece just had a baby and I haven’t even contacted her because I literally can’t...I feel like the worst/most selfish person in the world.

I feel like I have to give up the biggest dream I’ve ever had or I will lose the most amazing man I’ve ever met.

I’m completely lost and feel so alone...