High risk

So, I’ve been feeling like I should go to the doctors so yesterday I went to the ER & found out I’m a high risk.. im so hurt cause I wanted to have a home Birth or birthing center. The ER was so not helpful. They made my discharge papers before even telling me what’s wrong. They told me the name of what it’s called but I don’t remember that long name & now I have like three doctors appointments today. I just feel so sad. This pregnancy isn’t how I planned it out to be.