I slept with my ex...

so yes, I slept with my ex... and it was amazing and it breaks my heart. we were together for 3 1/2 years and broke up 6 months ago.. we had a mutual break up because of his issues with alcohol abuse and his growing curiosity for narcotics... since then we have been really good friends, we just clicked too much to disappear from each others lives forever, so we texted a few times every week to keep everyone posted and when I came back home for the week we decided I should spend a few nights at his place so I can spend time with our dog who I love so much.. I really didn't think this would happen, but it just clicks and we have incredible chemistry and it breaks my heart I let myself stumble back... I worry we will never really be just friends, and I wish he wasn't an addict anymore and we could figure it out but I know that's just not our story... what bothers me the most is the fact it just felt so amazing, I came almost immediately,, and I've been without a realc orgasm while fucking since we broke Up, and I'v been around a bit... someone help explain what's wrong with me