Much anticipated BFP with our Rainbow

2017 was a roller coaster. In Feb I found out I had a relatively big fibroid smack in the middle of my uterus just as we decided to start ttc. Had it removed in April and in June, after 1 cycle of trying we gout our BFP. I was the happiest I've been in my entire life. Everything was going perfectly. I got out of the 'touch and go' first tri and finally started to feel at ease and that this was real. On Oct 28th ,At 23 weeks , my cervix silently dilated. As I was being prepped for an emergency cerclage my water broke. 2 hours later I had to labor and deliver my daughter, who I knew would not survive. At 11pm that night we said hello and good bye. It was the worst day of my life. We took some time to grieve and regroup. In Feb we decided to try in the next cycle. At 10dpo, I got my faint BFP. Followed by slightly stronger BFPs and a confirmed blood test. Waiting on the results of the second comparative blood test.

I'm so grateful to be in this position again. And I'm really looking forward to holding this baby in my arms. I'm anxious, excited, scared and happy all at once.

This is such a hard journey. Harder than I ever imagined. I'm praying for everyone to get their BFPs and most importantly finally hold their babies in their arms. Don't give up the faith. It's literally all we have.