New here!

I’m new to this & am needing a little reassurance. I lost a baby October 28, 2016 and it really hit me. I thought I lost my whole world! Soon after I decided to get the Nexplanon. Lemme tell ya... that thing completely destroyed my life! My anxiety was at an all time high!! It (temporarily) ended my relationship... working on things to make them better at the moment. And I FINALLY got this birth control out 3 days ago!! I can already feel a difference.. but now ALLLLLL I want is to get pregnant! I’m not sure if it’s my hormones or what.. but I can’t help it 😢😭