my story

(im 14 now) the first time i figured out how guys at school looked at me was when i was 12. i has just gotten snapchat and some guys at my school pressured me into sending them nudes. later in the year (i vaguely remember what haolened that day) a man started to feel on my body in the corner of a public mall. i never looked at his face. i just looked down at the ground wanting to scream but no sound coming out. the memories of that lingre in my mind but i cant put together the whole story and i only have little bits and pieces. most recently at 13 a new boy came to my school. he saw my friend alyssa and i and started making a plan to rape us. (her and i look somewhat alike) he would give her notes directed to both of us saying that he wanted to get us high and rape us. he would follow us around school and walk dangerously close to me on the way to the bus. i was confused and scared. we kept it between only a few people. one day i got called up to the school office because someone had reported it, i told them everything. the next day i spent an hour with the police being asked many questions about him and later that day my parents were called. that happened 4 months ago and im currently in the process of getting a restraining order. i just really needed somewhere to type all this.