I’ve had 6 pregnancies and only 2 children born. 2003 Mc, son born in 04, daughter born in 05, then last year in June I had a positive test and a few days later lost the baby. That one didn’t affect me because it was a faint line I was waiting to retest. Nov I was 12 wks had to have a d&c; because baby’s heart stopped at 9wks. This one killed me.

I’m freaking out this morning I don’t “feel” pregnant. I’ve been sleepy and moody with a little bit of nausea and that’s it. But that’s how I feel I am often lol

Last time my boobs hurt so bad and I was sick constantly. I know they say that sometimes you don’t get them right away, but it’s comforting when you have lost multiple babies to have symptoms, it assures you so far so good. I just have a bad feeling and idk why I can’t shake it. Maybe it’s my fear and anxiety. I would be around 6 weeks and I’m high risk. I had my levels checked last mon and from the previous wed they were 1500, fri 4900, and mon 17,000 but they put me on progesterone suppositories immediately.

I just really want this baby to stick. I don’t think I can go through another heartbreak.

I just needed to get that off my chest. I can’t tell my man he thinks I worry too much, and I’ve only told a couple close friends. I don’t want to tell our family and let them down again.

Aaahhhh..... my mind is just racing a mile a minute. I would kill for a lorazepam lol but know I can’t take any of my meds.

If you made it this far my ultrasound is in 50 min