When am I gonna find someone that will treat me the way I deserve? When am I gonna find someone that won't take me for granted? When am I going to find someone that commits when they say they will, not months down the road, when they have already gotten into a relationship with me but still wanted to explore their options?

When the fuck am I going to find someone who touches me in a way that is romantic, not sexual? When will someone find me beautiful even at my worst moments and will show me just as much as they tell me?

When am I going to find someone who won't break my heart the same way everyone else has?

This past year and whatever months with my boyfriend has been complete shit; he only makes me feel like all heterosexual men are pigs that don't know what the fuck commitment means. I'm fucking bitter and hurt and angry and I want to cry but he's snoring his ass off a foot away from me.

Part of me wants to leave.