I lost my son in May last year, he was born at 23+2 and he fought for a week. He lost his fight and my heart broke when he died. My partner and I have been ttc for a few months, last month I gave up on tracking my periods and testing because it stresses me and I stop enjoying sex which is kinda crucial when you're trying for a baby. Besides my cycles are all over the place, I'm on cycle day 46 today, wasn't worried as I've had 54 day cycles before. But for some reason I tested... and oh my god I see 2 lines.

I'm sorting things before I go back to work, I've a load of studying to do for exams when I go back. I don't know what to think, I'm worried, I'm happy, I'm convinced I did the test wrong some how... oh my god I want this so so bad. UPDATE

so I tested again this morning.... oh my god it's really happening isn't it?!