I've been with my boyfriend for over a year and a half. I love him absolutely. I would never hurt him, but I also have an ex. We never ended badly. We are still friends. We talk civilly. like oh hope your doing good. and piddle chit chat every once in a while. I want both lives... I see a beautiful future with my ex. And I have a less beautiful future with my boyfriend now. How do I make this go away. I just want to be happy. I love them both. I want both. this is horrible. i was with my ex for 2 years and it's been 2 years since we've been together. but I always come back to him. as a friend and more when I'm single. he's never hurt me badly. he's a perfect man.my boyfriend now. we've had lots of issues. but we've worked through most of them. we have a few issues to still deal with but we figure it out. we love each other