Random Thought, Need opinions

*I have been in an abusive relationship, so it might be why I'm thinking like this* Ok, so my SO is a strong man. Now, before what happened yesterday, I was thinking the bruises he's been leaving during sex and when we play around were accidents. Yesterday, we had a disagreement and I wouldn't look at him, so he kinda grabbed my chin to make me look at him. He definitely had a tight grip. Am I being shown what he's capable of or am I just overthinking it? The bruises are either hickeys on my boobs and neck or on my legs and arms where he grabs me at. He's openly admitted he does the hickeys on purpose but I've never asked about the bruises.