No time for a baby


Am I the only who in order to hide the pain of infertility keep saying lies about trying to get pregnant? My friends at work, my family, husbands family, when they ask when I’m having a baby, I always say “I don’t have time for a baby!” I don’t want them to know that I’ve been trying for a year, that I get heartbroken every time I see that negative test, or that I’m on clomid. Is it bad that I lie about it?