So I’m on month 5, almost 6 if not having a period. I have been off of my birth control since June of last year when my boyfriend and I decided we wanted to try and have a baby. Well, I haven’t had a period since the beginning of October.

And NO I’m not pregnant:( I had a pretty convincing test about a month ago and I went into my doctors office and they did a blood test.

It was negative unfortunately. I’m trying to stay positive at this point ya know. So I go to my Gynecologist and he tells me yeah you aren’t pregnant. So now I’m panicking.

He sits there and tells me that I have a mass the size of a tennis ball in my uterus.

This is where I am to date. I told my boyfriend about it. I’m devastated and now scheduling a surgery date for the removal and biopsy because it could be cancerous. Praying it’s not. Praying I won’t lose the ability to have children at 21. I feel like I am doing this almost alone. I’m very lucky to have my boyfriend and his family with me through it all. My own family and I do not speak anymore due to the abusive situation between my mother and I. It sucks because this is the stuff you really wish you could tell your mom and she actually listen. But I am grateful to have this group of women. ❤️