I know that a lot of people say that it’s not healthy to be 5’5” and 275lbs, and I agree. I know that while I am healthy now, it will catch up with me. But I will be honest. I am beyond terrified to even start attempting to lose weight because of saggy skin.

I began gaining weight after I was in an extremely abusive relationship. My thought process was that if I was fat, no one would want me and I would be safe. After years of therapy, I have moved past the abuse and have now found a loving husband. I have also found that I have a food addiction and I don’t know how to get past it. I don’t want to be a lard ass anymore, I just don’t know how to find the spark to get back into shape not the love of healthy foods.

I went to a gym a couple of years ago and was laughed at for my size. I don’t exercise unless I’m by myself for the same reason. I see so many inspirational women out there, but I can’t seem to find it in me. Someone. Please help me. 😢😢😢😢