I am seriously regretting sharing my loss with my mom and letting her know that we are ttc #1. She is 54 and has lived with metastatic breast cancer for 4 years now. It was hard for both of us to accept that she may never meet my child. However, she has started a "Baby Who" hope chest for me. She's collecting things that someone will give me if she's gone by the time I have a baby. When I first found out, it was so heart warming. But, now, every time she says anything about finding something for Baby Who, it's just absolutely gut wrenching. It's been more than 2 years now that we've been trying. Getting AF each month is hard enough. But then, hearing those things on top of her constant "It's going to happen soon. I just have a feeling. My feelings are usually right" .... It comes from the right place, but I just can't any more. *end rant*