i need help *TW- religion, personal opinion*

i want to be religious again. for a good while i had stopped practicing because i’m bi. i was raised christian and taught being gay is wrong. that god hates gay people so i gave up trying. i abandoned my faith because i thought christian people were rude and opinionated and homophobic and i thought they all hated gay people and i didn’t want to be like that or be around that. i’m having a very hard time dealing with events in my life right now and i want guidance. reassurance. someone to talk to. knowing that i can put my trust in my god, that he will guide me and help me. i want strength and help to get through this. i believe we have no way to know what happened in the past, if god is real we have no proof and i don’t know if god exists or not. but i want to believe there is something. so i don’t know what religion i would follow. how can i find a religion that works with what i believe?

edit: thank you to everyone who has commented, y’all have all helped tremendously :)