I think I'm out :,(

Natalia 🧡
So I have a vaginal ultrasound 4 days ago and I see my little baby. 
Today I went to a normal ultrasound  and it was very difficult to see it and they can't find any heartbeat. They send me to ER and they did me another ultrasound, this time vaginal, and they can see an embryo but not heard any beats. Doctor says its early to tell anything and that I have to go back in seven days, but I started with some spotting right after the ultrasound. To be realistic I think that it's absolutely ridiculous to expect some kind of miracle next week. 
I'm completely devastated with this, my second lost, and I'm seriously thinking to give up on my dream to be mom, I really don't have the strength to be in this position ever again.
I really wish you all the best for all of you, mommies to be! Lots and lots of love.