Why do I do this to myself!!

Noodle • Ttc #1 since Oct 2017

I can’t help but test early every month. Seeing everyone else get positives early gives me hope but I know it’s going to be negative..

Perhaps it’s my way of retaining some control over the process. We are now on cycle 7. It seems to happen so easy for some people! Wish it was as easy as just “relaxing”... 🙄