Family/Friends

J.C.🐘 • P.W.G💙 6/25/19

I'm not sure if this is the right group for this, but I need some advice. I have one person that I can call anything close to a "friend" other than my husband and family. I met her eight years ago through my husband as she is a close family friend, so close that my husband calls her his cousin. Since the moment we met we clicked...we had a lot of the same anxiety and depression issues, and we became inseparable. Always going to each others houses, face timing when we couldn't, and grew to be "best friends" well two years ago she got divorced and moved out of our town. Since then things have changed, she has started seeing a new guy who came with a group of new female friends. Since she started partying with them I've been on the back burner. We used to FaceTime every night just to talk about our days and get our "therapy sessions" in, then we would only talk really late at night which I'm guessing is just because her other friends were asleep. Now I have moved to a new town for my husbands job(he works from 3pm-3am/1pm-1am depending on the week), and I've never needed her more but she always has something going on. I have tried to take into consideration everything she had going on.... She was in a new town too, divorced, just lost her mother, and was taking care of her father. Every time I call she ignores it and texts me something saying "sorry I'm so tired and busy call you tomorrow, love you" but she never calls unless, like I said, it's really late. Again I tried to understand where she was coming from, but then she will post on social media with her new friends and has even made posts thanking everyone who has helped her through her hard times....but never mentions me. I have even been on the phone with her and one of the new friends will call and she just gets off with me and never calls back. I have brought this up to her before which she apologizes for and says how bad she feels. But I have been there for her through EVERYTHING! From her divorce, to attempted suicides, to 3am calls of her crying her eyes out. I know I don't drink, or go to bars/clubs like people my age do...but it just makes me wonder. Since she is my only friend and I'm about to be 26, should I let it go? Am I just being selfish? I just want her to be there for me like I was for her, but i don't know if it's worth it anymore. Every time I see her post about everyone I just feel lousy and like I'm not good enough to be her friend. Sometimes I feel really bad about myself because she is the only person who wanted to be my friend in the last eight years and the friendships I had in the past all ended in a similar fashion. But I don't know if it's better to have a friend like this, or have no friends at all. Hoping to get some opinions on what you all would do in this situation.

-J