He Cheated, I Left But I Want Him, Help

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So I was here about a year and a half ago, my then boyfriend (Jack) had been cheating repeatedly and instead of owning up to it, he'd get mad because I found out. I asked you ladies what to do and you said leave.

I stayed. And dealt with so much more from him. Well, the day before my birthday (2/10) he kicked me out of our apartment. About 2 days later, I was apologizing for getting upset and moving back in. Of course no gift for my bday.

Valentine's Day, I woke up early made him lunch and sent him off to work. Be. comes back in, no gift again. I was a little salty of course. I only got him a card, but something is better than nothing, which he produced. I asked him why, he said he wasn't creative enough.

Turns out, he was using my car to go to other females homes or at least trying to. He never cleared that up, he never cleared up anything about what he was doing or why.

So I broke up with him. My friend gave me horrible advice about going on dates and seeing other people. Well, I contacted a guy I liked from my past about a tattoo (Ted). Well, of course conversations about what's been going on and my now ex was the topic.

He offered a tattoo and my ex was still asking me to come hang out and for some reason, I wanted to be around him still. So I was still seeing him, but one night he turned me away. I went to see my friend and we ended up having sex, and unprotected (I know, I kill myself everytime I think about it)

It been about a month, we haven't talked much since. He told me he loved me the day after I said happy birthday, but that's about it.

I been hanging with my ex and he asked if I had had sex with anyone, I told him the truth. And now he doesn't want anything to do with me. But he confessed that while we were together he was having sex with other women, within proximity of our home.

I can't shake this feeling, but I want to work things out with him. I had a hard time for some reason finding anyone attractive or even worth my time and found myself with him every chance I got. I don't know what to do and I can't shake him. I want him but idk how to leave him to get his thoughts together.

Can somebody tell me the best way to handle this?!