Depressed

I don’t like myself at all. All I see is someone who’s ugly and super fat, I try to go to the gym but nothing works and I stop. I recently got fired from my job cause I didn’t pass the probation day.. I hate myself and I don’t really have any friends who I talk to much. I’ve been in bed and doing nothing, today I got this pain on my side and I believe it’s more fat that grew, I find it disgusting and I jst hate myself.