me and my partner of five years have two amazing children and been together for five years.

He has a ex and also has three children to her but unfortunately doesn't get to see as she has moved far far away and its a very long story!

anyway he works 5-6 and some times he texts me saying he will be abit late. He has a book he writes all he's hours in and ends up handing it into the boss each month, anyway he doesn't keep it at home anymore and tonight he is still not home and its 10 a clock. He has texted me here and there saying he buggers rahahaha but he's told me in the past if he was like other guys he would do it so secretly and wouldn't use he's phone he would hàve a spare and that he would do things so secretive.

if he is cheating on me how the fuck would I find out. I'm here 24/7 alone with the kids with extreme anxiety and depression and I just feel alone all the time and he does this. I never heard anyone work from 5 in the morning to ¹0 at night I just want to get it over with but I will never find out