3dpo and ive already had enough of the tww

Gemma

I'm on cycle 5 of TTC. My identical twin who never wanted kids got pregnant last month after only two months. I'm really trying to remain positive but I can see myself losing it already. This month I've tried preseed hoping it's a miracle lube instead of just a plain old lube and I've started drinking pineapple juice because apparently that can help with implementation. anyone else in a similar situation?