We tried to conceive for about 10 years before it finally happened in February. Just a few days after we found out, I miscarried, at 5 weeks on 3/9. Even though it was very early in the pregnancy, it hit me very, very hard.

Fast forward to 4/3...I noticed I had been peeing more than usual. I peed 23 times that day. On 4/4 I felt fatigue to the point that I could barely make it to the bathroom. Then I started getting a metallic taste in my mouth, (a symptom I had with my first pregnancy) and I knew I was pregnant. I took a test that night, and got another BFP. After trying to conceive for 10 years, I got pregnant again two weeks after I miscarried.

I’m 4 weeks today. I am happy, and I’m trying to stay positive, think positive, etc., but I am so scared. Every time I go to the bathroom I’m terrified that there will be blood when I wipe. I have a long few months ahead until we’re in a “safer place”. With that being said, I feel like I’m in this alone since I don’t want to tell anyone until I’m in the “safer place”. I guess I’m just looking for some rainbow baby success stories to make me feel better in the meantime.