My husband is extremely verbally abusive, controlling, volatile and manipulative.

Tonight I was asking when we could get the baby gates installed on the stairs (my 15 month old nearly fell down them a week ago); they’re very weird stairs so no commercial gates fit (I’ve tried). He’s been texting a custom baby gate maker but I hadn’t heard any updates. I feel they’re unsafe and he let me know

1. He let his son (who’s now 4 years old) crawl up and down the stairs with no issues and he just blocked it with a mattress.

2. I am trying to drain him of all his $ (even though I offered to pay for it with the $ from selling a house recently)

We started arguing about that and it escalated and he began screaming at me and said “just go get a knife from the kitchen and kill me, bitch.”

So I started packing a bag to go to my moms house and he freaks out about me wanting to leave.

Then he says, as I’m walking to my car, “I bet you’re gonna go kill our baby like you did your first (I was raped at age 18 and had an abortion)”

Then he’s screaming and chasing the car and says “I’ll get MY son (we already know the sex) from you just wait.”

He has a PhD and makes good money, probably nearly 200,000/year.

I have my masters in nursing education and have been an RN for almost 13 years but I had to take a leave due to a situation with a mentally ill student that was stalking me. I’m going back to work in January of 2019 - so I’m not currently bringing home any $ and he lets me know about it all the time.

He criticizes everything - what I eat , what I wear, that I haven’t had sex with him in weeks (on pelvic rest due to bleeding), about sleep training my 15 month old, on and on and on. Nothing is ever good enough for him.

We went to counseling and he’s using everything discussed against me.

He says I’ve destroyed him.

In the state I live in you can’t get divorced while pregnant. I’m also not working so I don’t have any income to show to get a place to live. I can stay with my parents for a while though.

I’m at my parents now and he’s texted me dozens of times saying he’s sorry and how could I want to give up on him and he’s not controlling and why am I upset .

Ugh. I know he’d try to destroy me in a divorce but whatever - idk. I don’t want to work on things; I’ve already tried and its escalating if anything - not getting better.

I feel like a failure because we’ve only been married 3 months but we’ve known each other for 8 years and have been together for 8 months. My divorce was final from my ex 12/4/17 (he was cheating on me with men 😐). What a fucking mess 😭