Starving.

Other people might not be saying anything not because they don’t notice but because they are nervous too. Eating disorders are still an uncomfortable subject for some people and they probably don’t know how to approach you about it so that is not a reason to say that it must not be that bad. From what you say your food intake is and your mind set about it, it really is that bad. The voice that is telling you that it must not be that bad is your eating disorder talking not reality. In treatment I learned that the numbness you feel is from lack of nutrition. But unfortunately both positive emotions (loves, happiness, joy, etc.) and negative emotions (sadness, fear, etc.) are numbed. You can’t pick which emotions are numbed out. You may not seek treatment because your eating disorder voice is so loud but I really hope you do. Seek treatment even if it feels wrong and your eating disorder says it’s wrong. Treatment for an eating disorder is never a wrong choice. You are worthy of recovery and it can get better!! You may not believe it right now but you are and it will!! Fight for your life and know that there are people rooting for you! I know I do! 💕💕💕💕💕p.s. I went through residential and outpatient treatment for an eating disorder 2 years ago and it was one of the best decisions I’ve ever made!

You need to seek help now. You have an eating disorder which is one of the most deadly mental illnesses you can have