I just want

Someone to fill the gaps in my heart and soul. I feel like I’m the loneliest person sometimes. I just want someone to make me happy and actually be a real man. I have my daughter she makes me happy but I feel so lonely. I just want to feel like myself again I feel like I’ve lost a part of myself to someone who didn’t really give a shit. ☹️😢 I hate how he pretended to love me all these years and despite our differences even when he was wrong I stood by him and was always there for him. I cooked, cleaned, washed and folded his clothes and put them away. All he had to do was work and keep me happy and I guess that was hard because everything was always my fault and he was never in the wrong. Then he starts being violent, flipping the table with dinner on it that I made. Yelling in my face, name calling, putting me down and then he got physically abusive. I always thought he would change and every time we broke up I’d go back to him because this time it would be different he would change and it would be my way as well. It was always a lie he would pretend for a day and he would go back to being the same. He left us the day she was born and that was the last straw for me. It’s a struggle everyday being a single mom. I’m fighting to keep it together for our 3 month old daughter. I guess if I feel half empty inside I got to make sure my daughter is 100% happy.