So the more and more I progress through this pregnancy the more scared I get of ending up like my mom, with no friends, never leaving the house, doing nothing but take care of my son day in and day out.

I’d previously lost all my high school friends when I moved towns after graduating. I’ll admit I went through a kind of “rebellious” phase, traded in my childhood friends for some more “fun” and rebellious friends.

But with this pregnancy I’ve realized my “fun” friends aren’t really friends at all, now that I can’t party and go hard and be out doing crazy stuff all the time, I’ve pretty much been forgotten in an old drawer while they went on to make new friends.

And as for my old friends, they now think I’m trash. It’s odd though, I miss them more than my “fun” friends, they were a much more pure and stable friendship.

As for my best friend of 10 years, her childishness and self pitying ways made it hard to include her in this new life I’m trying to build, where I’m going to be a parent and an adult and not want to get wasted with her in her basement while she cried that her parents were too strict.

So here I stand for the past 3-4 months with zero friends. Other than my mother and my boyfriend I’m completely isolated. Never leave the house, with no one to talk to or make plans with or simply to be friends with...it’s really starting to weigh on me...

And I just don’t know what to do anymore.