To my boyfriend...

I know you won't ever see this but here it goes anyway. So, where do I start? We found each other through tinder, the first thing you asked me was if I wanted to hangout and to your surprise I said sure right away.You were so used to girls giving you excuses but honestly I almost bailed on you that day, to go to a hotel with my friends.. But I told myself I would have felt bad. You told me from the start you hated texting, and talking on the phone, if I hadn't gone with you that night, I doubt we would have ever met face to face. Our first date went so well it lasted at least 24 hours. I'm so glad I went, since that day we've been inseparable. I remember the day you first told me you loved me. You were dropping me off at home and as I was rounding the front of the car with a nervous crack in your voice I barely heard you, I was so happy my heart hurt and as I watched you speed away I squealed like a child on Christmas Day. Since then you have given me strength when I was down, hope when I was drowning in doubt, support when I was falling, laughter when I was crying, kisses when I needed them most. You are my rock, my everything. And without you..... I would be fine. I would perfectly OK and life would go on. Because you see I know that I can live without you, I've done it before, but the thing is I don't want too. I want to fill each day with your smile, I want to hold you close, I want to draw on your face when you get drunk silly and laugh at you in the morning, I want to lie next to you at night, I want to stay up with you till sunrise when you can't sleep, to laugh at you're jokes even though some of them really just aren't funny, to look in your eyes and see the world, to laugh at you when we're 80 and still using the same lighter because we just keep losing it.. I want to spend each day with you, my best friend, the love of my life. And one day I want to marry you.