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I have been diagnosed with HV1 on my vagina ... I have went through taking he medication process the urgent care prescribed me but the doctor just told me I have the kind 80% of people either got as a child kissing the wrong person sign of cold sores but I had an outbreak on my vagina.. still not virus 2 but either way I hate thinking about this because I dont like not being told specifically what is it I can’t do and she told me it’s just sense like she you get a cold sore outbreak don’t go kissing someone or sharing but I have done so many research I understand you are not doctors but I got this being a unaware young adult and now I have come to realize condoms are the way for the rest of my life because I have to protect what invades my body weather or not I claim I’m monogamous. But I really can pull my hair out one by one thinking about that the doctor hadn’t brought up and I come to conclusions if the doctor didn’t bring it up then I should be fine but what about when it comes to oral sex with me ? Being if a guy wants to perform oral sex on me .. yes I have read further on even if your virus is not shedding or having a outbreak it’s possible. I want to just hear opinions of how others think of simplex 1 but being the outbreak was on the vagina . Please and thank you my main concern on opinions is weather someone chances of how simplex one works of the virus will it immediately effect him being exposed to it even if I’m not outbreaking