I am officially a month late for my cycle. At first, I was cautiously optimistic. I bought a bulk pack of LH and HCG tests, but everything is negative.

My SO tells me not to be discouraged and says we should just keep trying.

But...

I'm just not in the mood lately.

To top it off, I am cranky from not sleeping well-lots of weird dreams lately.

I'm walking around like a zombie, with my mind on one thing-must make babies-

Every little thing my body is doing points to pregnancy, because I have become so focused on it:

*30 days late AF

*fatigue

*weird dreams

*cramps

*appetite changes

*complexion changes

*lost sex drive

I feel like I felt when I was pregnant with my son.

because the tests are negative...but

I made an appointment this month to be sure. Line eyes, afterall. There was the slightest hint of pink, or so it seemed. At this point, I feel like I am grasping at straws...but I tested negative with my son at first too, so maybe (?).

I'm sooo ready for a sign-AF, even, if it means I will ovulate again.

but more than anything...I hope for a surprise at my appointment. I hope my body isn't just going bonkers and there is a lil peanut in there.

One thing is for sure...none of my children will ever be able to say they weren't wanted!