WARNING: Long long rant..

So I really just need to get this all out of my system.... well I am 16 and currently in high school while being five months pregnant, and my 18 year old boyfriend has always been supporting and wants only the best for our baby. Or at least that’s what he made me think.

We had been dating for a while and been having sex a lot...typical high school relationship. And we’ve had a few pregnancies scares but when we thought about it, that it wouldn’t be the worst the in the world to have a kid. So when we found out I was pregnant at first we were a little scared but then we got so excited.

So now here we are with me at 19 weeks pregnant and he decided to start talking to this freshman girl. He is a senior and I’m a junior.

We’ve never really had anyone of the opposite sex in our social media but he decided to add her on Snapchat.

Later people in school would come tell me that he was cheating on me with her. So I asked him if he was cheating and he said no. So then I said “okay so you wouldn’t mind me checking your phone than right?” He got so offended and wouldn’t let me touch his phone until I finally convinced him.

Then I see obviously no messages saved on Snapchat. But then I see a screenshot picture of her in his camera roll and I figured I had had enough.

He had been ignoring me to talk to her for a while and it had just felt like he only was with me because I was pregnant. Like he was just waiting for me to break up with him....

Saddest moment in my life when I told him I was done, and I was tired of feeling like I was competing with some freshman girl. And all he said was, okay what would you like me to do for the baby.

I’ve just been so completely upset with him and my self and it’s been hard to even have an appetite. I just kept finding some reason to text him and ask him stuff but he replies so dry and rude like he just hates me...

All this started when I stopped having sex with him, I think he only “loved” me for that. And now he’s constantly at his house with this girl who’s known to be a slut and I just can’t stand it. The thought of him being with another girl breaks my heart.

He really is a sweet guy, but if he doesn’t like you he’s the total opposite.. he acts as if we never were in a relationship or in love or that I’m not carrying his child. And this girl knew I was pregnant, I used to be friends with her and tell her about how much I loved him and then she goes and steals him away from me..

It’s been not even two days with out him. We used to text every second of everyday and fall asleep on the phone together... I miss him so much and I don’t know what to do.

I kept asking him for rides to school and home and he said yes but I can just tell he doesn’t look at me the same anymore...he’s completely moved on but he still has me wrapped around his finger...

The saddest part is, that I know they won’t last. That girl can’t ever keep a relationship, she just hops from guy to guy. And he is about to graduate. So I don’t understand why he would leave me..his future family after we have talked about getting married going to college together and just taking care of our little blessing.

I was actually his first real girlfriend, I know most people say you’ll never stay with the first person you date or you won’t stay with your high school sweetheart. But I thought things were different. I’ve definitely hit a low part in my life..now I’m 16 and pregnant while also being single...great..everything is just perfect 😔