Living in fear.


I had a miscarriage with my first pregnancy on January 17 '18. I carried my angel for 9 weeks 6 days.

I found out March 10th that I was pregnant again. ever since those two lines popped up, I look at the toilet paper every time I pee to make sure im not bleeding. everytime my back hurts, I remember the back labor I had while miscarrying my first baby. and now, I am 9 weeks 4 days and I feel depressed. I can't help but want to cry, thinking what if I can't make it to 10 weeks again? what if I miscarry again? I don't know what I would do if it happened again.

I was recent laid off on 4/6/18, so now I am just at home... by myself.... thinking way too much. I don't know what to do. I feel like crap all day long.

Any suggestions on things to get my mind off of this would be much appreciated.