Dreams about hurting my mother

So my mom and I havent had the best relationship. We started having a mother daughter relationship when I was 10. Its been rocky but toleratable. Fast foward.. I have these really ODD dreams where I am always angry at my mother. I am yelling at her or being extremely violent. One dream I poured bleach in her eyes and she became blind. Another dream I was just cursing her out or killing her. Basically everytime I dream about her i am ALWAYS frustrated and rediculously angry. When I wake up I feel sad and I dont understand because I do love my mom but Idk why in my dreams I am so evil to her. It only scares me because I feel horrible.

In real life she does frustrate me because I feel that I am the mom and shes the daughter. And whenever me and her dont see eye to eye about something she goes and reports me to her sisters (my aunts) and plays the victim and makes me look like I am troubled and rebelious when honestly I am not. I am just tired of my mother acting like I am a horrible person when she has been a horrible parent to me for half of my life even if she didnt mean to be one. Calling me names, raising me in fear .. blaming me for her problems or her failed marriages and other stuff. I mean shes a good mom and shes bettet now but I think maybe the way she treated me in the past still haunts me. I have thought about going into Therapy to let it all out, but I am African and nobody belives that mental health is a thing so 🤷🏾‍♀️ I definitely want to try therapy because this is rediculous.. I cant be crazy 😐😕