Sometimes out of nowhere I'll feel like I'm going to die. I'll start thinking negatively. Sometimes pains will come out of nowhere. I won't want to do the things I normally do. I often anticipate fun things happening because then maybe that will lift my spirits. But ultimately I just feel...insignificant. Not like I want to harm myself, but like it wouldn't matter if harm came to me? It hasn't happened for a while (knock on wood) like maybe a uear or two, but it happens. Also I get pretty irritable for no reason sometimes. I already know I have anxiety. I don't ever really talk about it and I know people with serious depression and mental illness and I come off fine to them so whenever I bring something up like that they tell me I'm fine. And then I feel kinda bad...but I legitimately think something is wrong with me sometimes.