i live with my fiance in his dads house because we are having some issues finding an apartment for rent. im just super uncomfortable because its not my house and its so dirty and manly. it doesnt matter how much i clean or what i do its gross and his dad has a problem with everything i do (but wont say anything to me about it) and our bedroom is small as fuck so its always cluttered and it drives me insane no amount of storage can help. the bathrooms are dirty because its just men coming in and out. there was pee inside of the bathtub the other day i kid you not and his dad USED MY RAZOR!!! but ANYWAY im having a really hard time with my hygiene/self confidence because i dont want to use the bathroom, also everything is down a huge flight of stairs so it makes it that much more annoying. i just dont care to do anything because im so uncomfortable i dont see the point. that includes sex, cooking, doing my makeup. every aspect of my life. im so fucking stressed out and i need advice on how to make this bearable or at least advice on how to care about myself... idk. i know it will all end when we get an apartment but it almost seems like an impossible task to find some place for rent in our town and my fiance isnt doing a thing to help find one.